ive never wanted something so bad. i feel the worst pain ripping through my chest…
i am so fucking lost without you..
ranting
I know things have been rough. They’ve been hell for me. Ive been suicidal for three days, crying none stop and ready to break. Ever since breakup ive literly went off the deep end. Taking multiple vicodin to sleep, just wanting to end it all. Im sorry im.being so pushy and begging for ur attention. Im terrified to lose you again. Last year at this exact time we did this and then I lost you to someone else.. i can’t watch you fall inlove with someone else, it’ll kill me. I know Im over bearing, worry a lot and can be pushy, but im always scared. Im scared to see what’s gonna happen, to lose my best friend, and to have my heart ripped out of my chest again. We may fight but its because of that fear. I get sad all the time for no apparent reason and. I always try to be happy but its hard. The only real thing I know is your the only one who makes me happy. Your the only person I want to sleep next to and kiss and smile with.. I still and always will want to marry you.. I don’t know where were going but I know I want to go somewhere with you. I want what we were before, all over again. Our heat, our passion, our love. I know I left, but ill always regret it. I want you. No one else, and i never will. I want us to work out. I want to give you everything… I doubt ill get that chance to show you again how I want to be with you, but I had to get it off my chest.. ill regret not telling you- I want you to be mine again.. I love you…
Did you know that high school students today have about the same anxiety levels as insane asylum mental patients during the 1950’s?
(via brittneybetchx3)
[AGGRESSIVELY APOLOGIZES FOR BEING A BAD FRIEND AND AN UNPLEASANT PERSON TO BE AROUND]
(Source: thatsonofabitchamerica, via this--too--shall--pass)
